I have lost interest in almost everything. There are so many things that I need to do. But I am somehow totally in a state of "lost". Never was this state so strong that I couldn't come out of it. But I don't know what has happened this time around. I tried so hard to get stable, alas. There is surely one way of getting over it. But if I tread that way, then the consequences will be near to devastation. No Iam not referring in any way to a "full-stop".It is so difficult to even let out the cause for how I feel. I won't be able to conjure up right words to speak out. I feel a pain deep within. I have lost the capability to cry. I can't seem to vent it out. Its like all locked within me. So many nights I wished to sleep and wake up with all gone and forgotten. But, I can't. I can't express my shattered soul, as my soul is being depended upon. I can't stay close to it, neither can I stay away. A suspended state of mind. Swaying amidst improbable delicate lostness.A risk in every way I sway.