How do I feel? is what i wonder. I know not what is in store. I haven't got a slightest clue. But deep within my heart I cherish a hope. Deep within my mind, I cherish a thought. Deep within my soul, I cherish a desire. I've been told not to let go of it. I've been told there is so much to know. I've been told together we will be. I've been told a thousand things. But I don't know how long it will take. I don't know how far it will stretch. But I know for sure that I wouldn't let go. Iam someone's hapinness. Someone hopes to be with me. May not be today, may not be tomorrow. But there sure would be a day.Iam glad. Iam happy.

Parallel Universe exists!! Yes it does. While I was living through some hard foolishly-blunderous times, there was someone else somewhere living through similar times. And one bright-rainy night, we met. Life is full of Metaphors and Ironies. And thats when I knew, where I wanted to be for the rest of my life. Another impulse? Another jump? Another dip? Another? Whatever the cause for such a thought maybe, the thought itself is what mattered. No mind at all, Its all just heart. An intelligent heart. And it thinks!

Life is habitual to running into uncertainties at quite regular intervals. At least I have come to define life on these lines. Uncertainties i learnt are nothing but more information richness - Information Theory. Hmm...Information Overload, I must say. But yet as usual I take on this numb and sparky persona, that helps me through such scenarios. Life was so good some time back. But all of a sudden, the smooth ride has started becoming jerky amd jittery. I wasn't alone finally. But maybe I was. Maybe its all just a halucination.Maybe it's all just a dream, just something fake. I have to wake up. Where is the alarm?

Been quite some time since I felt like typing away. Well. Even though life had caught up good speed and was almost close to the right lane (apparently), I (read:human) strayed a little. And again, the hammer of realization stamped hard on me. Maybe I publicised myself as the "Solace Vendor and Soothe Service" expert. And then all of a sudden I had these "possessive" bills to pay for. I was sold out. I soon shut down the shop. No more "emotional dealings". Why complicate life ? It is as if I have this huge affinity towards pumping in unnecessary complicated issues and thoughts into my simple and smooth vein of life. Done with it!! Its all out of my system and am into life again. And this time I have decided for sure that no matter whatever happens I won't stray. Not at least in the direction that I was straying so far. Maybe a different perspective altogether. Slow transformation is the name of the phase. And Iam taking it smooth and slow. So many people around me whom I liked and had concern for. But just lost them all. Now Iam in pursuit of lost time and lost friends. Confessions I deliver, Apologies numerous. Fault unforgiven. Friends they were, friends they still are.

Days are going pretty good these days. But all of a sudden, a thought flashes across my skeptical mind. Is it an illusion? I feel so fake...I mean Iam in no way faking to be happy. But I somehow don't feel so. I have no issues to crib about. I have no worries to break head unnecessarily. But it could be the withdrawal symptoms. Withdrawal from loneliness, depression and seclusion. Seclusion of thoghts, beliefs, and life. Maybe these are all the by products of me enetring a new world of novelty and happiness. Maybe these are the by products of "nirvana". Maybe....