I should consider myself as the most fortunate. It's not always that life comes down to a road with just two ways to go. I've just got to choose from two. Now the most amazing aspect of my fortunate (read:sarcasm) dilemma is that one way I get to explore my passion and hence love for cinema....and the other way I get to explore love and hence passion for "her". My heart has been nurturing both since a long time I must say. The move has been made and in a matter of some days I will be either heart broken or passion broken. But of course I prefer love to my passion. I might sound really absurd and foolish when I say what I said. She is unaware of my existence. And for me she is my existence. Even i got lost when I said that. It's all just flowing out. I have no control and I don't wish to regulate the flow of my thoughts. Let them be. Some days down the line and you will find me using this space yet again, either for posting tears or a smile. I so wish to have her by my side. I so wish. Can't really lay all my hopes on it. If it does'nt work out, then I suppose I will continue living alone. Whatever. Please pray that it all works out fine. I have had enough of unnecessary and forced confusions and twisters in life. No more. Please No more......the question has been hailed, no sign of an answer.....waiting in anticipation