I have lost interest in almost everything. There are so many things that I need to do. But I am somehow totally in a state of "lost". Never was this state so strong that I couldn't come out of it. But I don't know what has happened this time around. I tried so hard to get stable, alas. There is surely one way of getting over it. But if I tread that way, then the consequences will be near to devastation. No Iam not referring in any way to a "full-stop".It is so difficult to even let out the cause for how I feel. I won't be able to conjure up right words to speak out. I feel a pain deep within. I have lost the capability to cry. I can't seem to vent it out. Its like all locked within me. So many nights I wished to sleep and wake up with all gone and forgotten. But, I can't. I can't express my shattered soul, as my soul is being depended upon. I can't stay close to it, neither can I stay away. A suspended state of mind. Swaying amidst improbable delicate lostness.A risk in every way I sway.

Plotting life as a graph, I could see that mine has so may interleaving nodes of uncertainties and indecisiveness. I look at the life up close yet again. To look for traces of something. But every time I come face down with the same. Deja Vu. Life goes round and round in circles, closed or open. I have found what I lost. I have lost my sense of belonging. I feel like a detached string flying loose manipulated by the flamboyant breeze. I have lost track of where I came from. Maybe because I was too concerned about my future. Or maybe I had become selfless to the point that I could no longer think about me. As it is said, the ego dragon in me has vanished.Iam sans ego.Kyunki sans bhi kabhie serif thi!! haha....typographocentric pjs. Do u sense a slight essence of the old me? No more life plots, no more...no less either!!