"The spider got crushed by the back side of a useless CD". Thats where technology meets biology!I feel like am in a dreamland. No am not high. Have loads of thinking to do and yet not in that frame of mind. Not that am pre-occupied with any thoughts. Its just another "downy-lowy day". Testing time again tomorrow and here Iam, posting away onto my deserted blog.

How easy is it to convince oneself about what he has lost or maybe what he has gained? Vulnerability is one attribute that I have got rid of. Its all in the head, I have realised. And then I have started taking control of how I think. I have started steering my thought through safe zones. And my efforts are sure showing some signs of improvement. I should have the courage to hold on and see to it that I never again cross the thin line of lure. I see on the other side, tears and wounds. Never want to go there again. Ever.Am happy with life. Life is treating me good and fair. May Life bless everyone.

Not many days to waste away, and yet at the end of each day I see that I didn't make much of it. There are certain days when one feels everything uninteresting and even though has a lot of things to do, doesn't get in the frame of mind to pursue. Guilt of not doing anything fruitful haunts me. The one reason am posting such a "loserly" tone is in fact to let it out and start afresh. In sometime I have decided to start treading the "not in a mood but have to" path. I have to force myself to get started or else I will be left stranded. Starting trouble, that's all. Spark plug replacement on. About to start again....

Its still happening. I don't believe it. You know there are certain things that you robe as coincidences. It happens once, twice, thrice, and then it keeps happening on and on every time. What do you say about that? Coincidence series? Nah! I wouldn't. I have come to believe and perceive them as signs. Signs from my "around". And they tell me about "being-even" "balance" "symmetry". That seems to be the only way of interpreting what I come across. And if I get into the details, it would sound like a fairy tale altogether. Some things are so meant to happen that they happen in the most unbelievable manner and you stand spellbound wondering if you are dreaming.
Today afternoon, I had the weirdest nap. I could see so many images, so many. I just couldn't sleep. Even though all that I was seeing was pleasant and colourful. Evening was pretty laid back and settled. Calm and peace. A dear friend told me that today is one of his happiest days. And the time that he told me about it was 10:10 and today happens to be 10th october (10). Its happening. again and again! Under a microscope? Probably!

Today while I was chatting with a friend, a crazy thought flashed throughmy mind. What if the "smileys" wage a war against humanity? The battlefield: All messenger windows!! The reason? Well, don't you think the smileys have been over used and abused in most of the lines? You tell something really rude and then flash a winking smiley. Shifting the blame on the poor yellow heads. But do not worry!! For we have the CRYeys to our rescue. But the only situation am worried about is when the smileys seek help from their bigger cousins, the laugheys. An iconic battle is all set! It can set start anytime. So watch your messenger windows! Messenger Versions? or Warzones?

At times life seems so long, and death so distant. "Alive but not around, dead but not departed" - a line from a movie I was watching. How many more lines about life and death? Why pitch life against death? Why such fascination with death? It sure is the anxiety about the unseen consummation of life.Is life the beginning of death? or is death the end of life? Are we living? or dying each coming day? This is what I call "Deadlock interrogation". Another preposterous thought, "All are born to die" "And then dead to be born again?". Life after death through another life. Too much of life and too much of death makes me feel somewhere in between!

Great Day. I have shared so much with so many, but there sure was a void. The sharing didn't calm me down or help me, on the other hand, my feelings got abused, and my sentiments got overlooked. But when I shared it with the right people, I sure know what feels like the neighborhood of Bliss and happiness.God Bless!! all human souls!!Amen....Awomen?No offence...just a verbal jugglary!

Today is one important day. Finally, am starting to think in terms of my "career & work". Worried a lot about a lot of things. Of course those things were meant to be the way they were. I'll talk about it once I get back. I need to prove my point today. And if I don't get through the expert heads, I will again be standing stranded on a crossroad. But hey, I won't give up.I have promised my optimism-sphere, that I will see it through. With wishes from my loved ones, I step in....

There are moments wherein you become so over-courageously sincere and honestly frankly true that you sound rebellious.Am back on track with life and I know that whatever I was going through was a part of it!Its like everybody's life!! Thats how it is!!

With priorities in sight!!
"Not to hurt", the motive!!
Live, leave and let live and leave!!

No offences!! No...nothing...
plain blank me!! the spiceless!!
The atiDUDE!! am back!! back like never before!! Not going back ever!!
cos I know, many have their dreams on me!! and I wanna make them happy.as i said happiness is relative!!

I will be happy!!